I know.. it’s been a while. I had to get my sh*t together y’all. (Still in progress FYI!)
While all that is amazing and I’m forever grateful for my blessings, the journey has not been easy. I have cried so many tears over the last few months. Tears of pain, heartache, joy, excitement, loss.. you name a reason, I’ve probably cried for it. (Ever since I turned 30, I cry for everything. According to my friends, I’m not the only one.)
Let’s see.. we’re 3 1/2 months into 2021 and A LOT has happened. I moved into my own place. I got a job working for a better company, with a salary increase (Thanks for the referral Kendra). I’ve let go of some people in my life & reconnected with others. OH! How could I forget about the biggest thing, I will FINALLY be graduating college on May 13th. (Stay tuned for my post about my unconventional college journey.)
As I’m writing this just moments before my 31st birthday, I’m overcome with a sense of peace…a feeling that was unfamiliar just a little over a month ago. I was crying everyday because I felt so lost, unhappy, and suffocated. One day my mom told me, “Get down on your knees and pray. Even if all you do is cry. Get on your knees and talk to God”.
So I did…
A week later, everything changed. I got an email saying I was approved for the apartment I’m now living in. I got an interview for the job I’ll be starting in two weeks. I met with my professor and he let me know that I’m on track to graduate. Life began to fall into place. I was getting everything I prayed for.
Even though I was getting my prayers answered, I haven’t stopped praying. For peace, clarity, understanding, and to just be a better person. To be more of Him and less of me.
Let me just say, it’s the best prayer I ever said.
Now, I didn’t start writing this with the intention of giving a testimony but I hope you took something from all of this 🙂
You might not be where you want to be in life but you can get there. (I’m not there yet either but I’m on my way!) You can’t always wait until all your ducks in a row, sometimes you just have to pick up the couple you have & cross the damn street! Time waits for no one & neither do open doors.
I don’t know about y’all but, I’ve come too far to give up or give in!
So here’s to year thirty-WON! May it be filled with light, laughter, peace, advancements, dope ass experiences, and an abundance of self-love!
Until next time; Be YOU. Do YOU. LOVE YOU 💜
P.S. I’ll check back in with y’all after graduation 😘